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THE NETHERLANDS - HEEMSKERK - Everyone has that phase in life when everything seems to be going wrong.

On Thursday, November 14, I (Tom Verhoeven) delivered my 30-year-old autistic son to the psychiatric hospital in Bakkum after an anxious car ride during a very intense, terrifying psychosis.

After 4 months of struggle with small ups and many downs, things really didn't work anymore and he posed a danger to himself and those around him.

So Thursday evening my wife and I were crying like a little child.
Read more: Sometimes life is a disaster! So no live BDSM Radio for a while! 
On Wednesday my mother received bad news: cancer were found in her lymph nodes. So go to the AVL (Amsterdam Cancer Hospital) on Monday afternoon to find out what her chances are.

My 34-year-old son-in-law has esophageal cancer and it would be a miracle if he makes it to New Year's Eve. So the sadness of those two hurts us.

Finally, I am still waiting for a call from the pain clinic because of the pain in my left ball and lower back where, according to the ultrasound, there is a damaged nerve.

So in between all the hustle and bustle, take a lot of painkillers and lie down a lot.

That is why BDSM Radio is at a very low level. Well, and real BDSM is something I can only dream of or longingly watch on Fetlife in the hope that the storm will pass soon.

I console myself with the thought that there are people who have many more disasters and that I have to be strong for my family and mothers. Plus all the lovely people who help us.

So in the near future there will be an old BDSM Radio band playing again between Sundays 8-10 p.m.(CET) and Wednesdays 9-11 p.m.(CET) on https://www.mixcloud.com/live/BDSMradioEU/.

Hopefully I'll be your radio sub again soon,

Greetings and lots of BDSM fun,

Tom Verhoeven