Source: tomVerhoeven (Fetlife link)
THE NETHERLANDS - HEEMSKERK - Actually, after the ban of the live broadcasts, there should have been a recorded BDSM radio broadcast. However, the hectic situations in my family and relatives plus my health problems hit me so hard. So much so that I (@tomVerhoeven Fetlife link) feel empty, rickety and exhausted. The strange thing is that mentally I crave a BDSM contact more than ever, but my body does not have the energy to actually do/undergo this.
Hopefully better times will come soon after a period of overexploitation of my already weak submissive body. As soon as that happens I will shout it from the rooftops! Do you want to know exactly what is going on? Then read on!
CAUSES
As many of you know, I have had some tough months for me. My mother has uterine cancer, my son is in psychosis, my son-in-law has cancer and my body is bursting with illnesses and ailments.
The latter made the blows of the first 3 hit hard. Due to the fact that I get out of bed 4 or 5 times a night because of the pain due to polyneuropathy (dying nerves in my hands and feet). As a result, my days are filled with fighting sleep. Which also means that I have to lie down a few times during the day because of the pain. In itself not so bad until everything around it takes so much energy that it was actually unbearable for me.
CRAVING BDSM
In times of crisis I always escape back into my BDSM fantasy with the climax that after a while I am really submissive again. Which feels like a kind of mental reset and I can handle daily life better again. So now my head is overflowing with submissive and other BDSM fantasies while my body can barely put one foot in front of the other and I stumble into my bed after 3 or 4 hours. But yes, there is no Mistress and/or playmate in the wide area of ​​Heemskerk who wants to take an old wimp like me in hand. So I fear that I will keep bouncing until I weigh an ounce or until the pain infusions that I have recently been getting start working a little bit.
So dear kinksters, have some patience.
Kinky greetings,
tom Verhoeven (BDSMradio.EU)
BDSMradioEU at hotmail.com or my Fetlife profile for contact
